Friday, June 29, 2007

until tomorrow

as my hols are coming to an end, i have mixed feelings about it as usual, about cant wait to go back to class, and yea i want the holidays to never end. ive discovered new things which i never knew. like, never to count on anyone except yourself. and if u want things to be done smoothly, you have to do it yourself...and how i like to push to the limit, eg. in every sense..myself, someone else, and even time..so im sorry if ive been late at times..thats coz theres too many to do with such little time. and i know things haven't been going as planned or what i thought it would be...has never been tho..its just a thought you tell yourself. but it's beyond our control right?....


and and ouh please come support me or at least come and see la....Im gonna enter the DJ Battle, 6th July, next FRIDAY, at 3pm. ONE UTAMA, OVAL area .i havent started practicing yet..but Fuzz asked me to enter to get some exposure and momentum going on.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

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oh shit..i forgot what to write.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

sorak 07

ouh..tadi..i went to cheer 2007...
ahaha..bawak maryam and my other cousins..
believe me when i say that i HAD to bawak them...coz if not..siapa la nak bawak kan
but the point of this post is...to guys who's heartbroken or sangkut to one girl je..
THERES A WHOLE LOADS MORE CHUN CHICKS OUT THERE WEYY...
(ajins eyes are crystal clear after cheer 07)

ps. Sarah tan is hot!..but she cant really mc i think..but i dont really care if shes with me...lol..
but the sound system sucked abit..along with jien skali..lol!

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i dont understand.what are u tryna do
but i dont like it.
what uve said.maybe u do it too.
ive never been perfect,but neither have you.
yeah.prolly i am talking about you.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

paintball

uni'od colours of benna'on


first id like to thank everyone who wished me and gave pressie!..
i really2 appreciate it..
yesterday my friends and i went paintball-ing!
thanks guys..had fun...as the last one standing.
yea man..kalau tak caye..tanye diaorg on how i sneak up on elyas...
but..diaorg taknak mengaku nya..
ouh..and he shot me in the chest...sakit sial...well not sakit la..just pedih.. so basically i have a 3rd nipple..i rocK!


yeah..i was the only one who was semangat-ted to shoot ppl.

Monday, June 18, 2007

tribute to the midnite poets...lol

i have to apologise for the things ive done,
i am human tho, that i need to say
prolly things have been complicated or been left out,
but past experiences have taught me or made me like this,
to be so cold, heartless, and so demanding,
after what theyve done to me,
prolly what i seek now is perfection,
prolly what i seek now is compatibility,
prolly what i seek now is that feeling,
but i know its too much to ask,
and i dont blame them, its karma
and maybe ive let myself become you,
which i hated before,
but ive learnd, and not to make the same mistakes again,
but then again, i too have been tested,
but all i can hope for is..for you to understand.

Saturday, June 16, 2007

future from the past

something so simple can turn out to be complicated...thats what i talked about with aaron during his stay here...was fun.

Monday, June 11, 2007

hehe

hehe...take a look at sabs post...my gay faces!
Thanks again sab!..love the pic

http://gaathumb.livejournal.com/121976.html?view=240760#t240760

end of an era

its only 6 and i know why i dont look forward to my birthday...i realised that EVERY year...theres somthing dissapointing or just sumthing that wont allow me to celebrate it well....to most, everyone is happy that the fact that they're older..but i dont..last year my grandpa passed away 1 week before my birthday...and this year, ada lak exam 2moro...and some stuff that really made me bengang...like the public transportation, is so not efficient, i was late for a meeting...yeah..bodo kan...no wonder la orang byk bwak kereta...and when i was on the way home, still angry at the situation, a lady with her few weeks baby sat next to me....its amazing how u could just forget all the shits...by this tiny lil thing...and i wanna say thanks for all your wishes and ur pressies!..im blessed with alot of friends who accepts me as a part in their life..k..nak kene blaja..so if korang nak blanja..wait after tuesday la k..and make appointments dulu!..

happy birthday ajin

Saturday, June 09, 2007

ben benassi is ajins cousin sebenarnye


well..i have to say that i am busy currently, perhaps its because my bday is around the corner, im not sure...or maybe im just occupying my time to the fullest...hurm

i was supposed to have tea with my friends...tash said "pre-celebration"...but i tak suke pre pre nih..lol..and i think a separate celebration should be in order for ajin kot...ni nak skali gus..takle takle..ahahaha...but i am really sorry that i couldnt make it...its not intentional...the fact that tasha n nadia text me petang smalam, was abit late la..coz ive made plans already...i was bumpd that i caouldnt make it kan...im sorry, i really am...plus UV nation kot malam tu..lol

which brings me to UV nation, BENNY BENASSI mantapTED siot. i just went to see his set je..after his set..it was bass agents...terus blah...they're too HARD la..not my type. But i really think the location of the rave was abit not proper, becoz they wanted to do sumthing like tokyo drift scene..but its dark and loads of UV lights. the area has no proper signboard, and the toilets they provided was around 6 je..to cater konon "20,000 people"..and all yg pegi pon, mcm typical rave goers la...sampai sakit mata dibuatnye......and banyak gile amoi hot hot....adoi.....dum dum dee da.....but seriously la..BENNY BENASSI...mmg gila...i thought it was better than tiesto. hehe..in your face!

Friday, June 08, 2007

3.56

in my head now...all i could think of is...money....how can i make more of it?...why?..coz u need money to do anything...minyak..food...mamak...movies....nak kawin lagi...and like fara said "you want to stand on your own two feet"..

in my head now...is the words Fuzz...made it all clearer about acheiving your passion...

in my head now...all i could think is..how change has taken place...which it is out of anyones control...people change...feelings change...situations changed and its not the way it used to be....but who are u to decide the way its supposed to be?...but i guess..somethings wont change..hoping like it used to be..feeling it..but your just forbidden to do so.

in my head now...all the things is on replay mode...and wondering how my brain works..like borgy said...must never relate mistake and regrets...and wondering how that would mould us into what we are now...also guilt and evil at the same time...how brain and feelings just doesnt go along to make sense...

i jsut dnto mkea ssene

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

today

today was an extremely tiring but fun day!..
stressful abit on the starting bit, which i just think its somthing very very small..
but it was like the weekends to me...
did some mamak
met up with friends
watched pirates..finally..but i missed last part coz i had to pee badly after 2 hrs! ill catch it on dvd ke apa
i did not do the usuals.so i hope its good
hung out with a bisu fella..which was really2 cool actually how u communicate.
kene gigitan berbisa at one of my fingers.dont knw what was it.
and ada keje skit at nite.

had a good chat with him.at least got it out from the system
but he marah gua angkat lambat kat lrt station.ahahaha..chillex brader
but i need to meet up with hdzmn. dei..where the hell are u la..

Monday, June 04, 2007

touched by an angel

as i was talking to my friend, she was having some troubles with life, so i said, all you can do is hope and i know its easy for me to say it, but i guess hope is the one thing that keeps you going. and even for me, losing my grandpa was the hardest moment in my life. Yea..it is hard..and yea..i was destroyed, yet what does a person has to do after that?..cry till it bleeds so that you remember the pain of losing a person?... rott till u die?..or what?..


as for my story, the issue of hope being the subject matter comes after my cousin (Kak Ayie) passed away in dec 06. Just imagine, 3 deaths in a year. my uncle in apr, my atok in june, my cousin in dec. I must admit to you that ive asked God "who's next?" coz i know i cant be mad at God. How would you react to this if it was to happen to you? (choy choy touch wood) At this point can hope help?..by HOPING, what do you get?..you cant make them alive again?... being the youngest grandchild he had, there was alot of moments that we shared together,since i was barely walking right up to the time i laid him into his grave. we had this 'buddies' relationship goin on, and there was alot of moments, like, right before he was sick, we always share afternoon naps together, had this long talks, about life, and everthing you could imagine of coz theres nothing to do when ur in kampung. I'll sleep next to him whenever he's at my hse in KL. And since i was little, i was much closer to my mom's side of the family, and i remember during raya, he would always buy me a box full of fireworks and bunga api. therefore you can even see that i was 'manja' with the guy. a few days before he was in critical stage, i still remember the nasi briani that i fed him..it was one of his last meals. He's a very kind man, always provides the best for his family, loyal, and respectable man. Alot of people knows him because he was one of the right hand man to the Almarhum Sultan Idris Shah. It is touching when i recall, he would not do unless only if i was there to teman him. It'll be my duty to shave him if i was there...haih..its very hard to write. His favourite was KFC and always quietly having a glass of coke and when i finds out abt it, the coke will be finished by me.lol. He always had the 'walking stick' which he claims that it could split the seas, and turned into a snake..(yah, thats how i got to know the history of the prophets)...As a reasonable man, i know that death will meet everyone, and ive imagined how would i react if my atok passed away.Cleary, i threw the thought away, and cherish every moment that we had when he was still alive he was admitted to ICU, and on the day he died, alot of things happend.

My mom had left earlier because the hospital called, and hadzman sent me and my sister to IJN. when i went for my maghrib prayers, i wispered to him, saying whatever it is, dont go when im not there.
when i entered the prayer room, there was this strange feeling that i felt. I followed the prayer of another man in that room whom started earlier. I took that he was a patient because he was wearing a patient's band. Somehow, this guy's voice is so peaceful that it made me really focused to the verses. After reciting the doa, we salam, and he was dark toned, had a very nice smile,everything about this guy is making me peaceful, subtle, and as we salam, he was like talking to me, saying that he knows who i am, and say somthing like "im sorry but we have to take ur grandpa away" ...and in my mind, i was saying "ok, but please dont hurt him"....that whole thing was in my thoughts...(i dunno whether i was dilusional or not) and he left the prayer room, i looked outside the window, and saw a full moon lighting up above KLCC. i ran out to see the man again, but he was gone. Eventho it was abit freaky, but i guess i was still relaxed. As i reached back to my grandpa's room, he worsened and was unconscious. He passed away around 9.30 sumthing, and alhamdulillah, everyone close to him was there.


as i rushed back home to get stuff to head back Kuala Kangsar, there was a massive jam and iliyas called me to ask whether im goin to class the next day or sumthing, and once i reached home, it was messy because we were in the midst of moving, and i got another call from my auntie telling me the van jenazah will be waiting at IJN coz im the one who will follow my grandpa on his last journey home. along the way, tasha called to check up on how i was doing. She was trying to keep my mind of the sadness..till my batt was finished!lol..but i still remember the sky that nite, there was alot of stars that nite. The cold wind rushing into my eyes, the shakey hands ive been having, the hunger..and among all others. The van driver was a young cool guy as we talked, the journey back was a different feeling, the streets was well lit, as the next day, was the Sultan's bday or sumthing. It was like a final salute to the body,sorta, or how i felt la kot. (Thanks bob for sending me to IJN tht nite,and thanks tash for everything)


everything was sorted out when we reached, the furniture had been moved and all and everything was in order, i mean, the routine had been done 1 month before, when uncle azhar passed away, so everyone knows what to do.
with the help of Uncle Pian, everything went smoothly, as we finished recited surah Yassiin, everyone moved to the dining area, to get somthing to eat. remember that we all havent had dinner and its 3.30am already. And i sat next to my grandpa's body and my grandma came, and tidy up my grandpa, like she usually does, and i can see that shes shattered but shes trying to be strong, as time flies, the azan of the subuh prayer could be heard, and uncle pian asked me to follow him to the mosque to invite the ppl to have a tahlil after subuh prayer. After finished tahlil, around 7.30, my mom asked me to get some sleep. I had a very weird dream but i couldnt remember what it was, and my sister woke me up at 9.30am. went down, recite surah Yassiin again, and the usual, mandi and kapan, and Sultan Azlan Shah came to pay his last respect among others who my grandpa has touched them in anyway. There was this one indian man, spoke to me that he was my granpa's office boy he was working at the Istana, and now, he's also holding a post or sumthing in the istana. That is why in life,i believe if we touched someone, it will be a part of someones memory, hence could ones life.

i was with him thru out the whole time, as i promised him to give him a good funeral. and alhamdulillah, i did. i lay him down in his grave, and was the last one to leave. I couldnt leave.Just couldnt do that to him, and Kak Ayie came next to me, hugged me, at first i didnt know who it was, but we broke into tears. Together. For our dear grandfather. 4th June 06 This happend on todays date, last year. Yup. 1 yr flies so fast. and kak ayie passed away in dec 06. To think about it, she did mention to me that she dreamt of my grandpa calling her. Probably it was a sign. Probably. God knows.i miss you guys.

Friday, June 01, 2007

yikes

yikes..im having one of those "being a stalker" day... .pfft.

taken from The Chronicles of Faisal Elkjaer

ajin: well..just now i spoke to sab abt sumthing and it led to the state of my hair..and as i was explaining to her, she gave me this link..and whadda u know...im sorted out.



taken from The Chronicles of Faisal Elkjaer

Friday, August 11, 2006

Top 10 Reasons students (guys) should keep long hair


Some people just don't get it.

So.. to all you believers and followers of long hair, brothers, you are not alone; i have compiled for us all the ultimate top 10 list to justify our all-too-often-looked-down-upon-hard-ambition. To the disbelievers, strap yourselves in for a rude awakening - it's never too late to be a convert.

10. the thrill factor - You just can't deny that male students with long hair have some degrees of excitement that others don't feel. How's the thrill of not seeing your parents after a year overseas, then coming back, and to their shocking awe of disbelief - voila - 'check out the dreadlocks, Ma!' Or how about the exhillirating manouvres of trying to evade the predatory eyes of the Pak Guards in front of local uni gates (eg UIA, UiTM), to prevent yourself from getting fined? It's like skipping school while still in your uniform - breeding new ideas of escape and analytical mission planning, just for the fun of it.

9. favourable economics - People argue that long hair requires heavy maintenance. What they fail to see, however, is the underlying economics of keeping your hair short. Whether you work as a paper boy or not, 10 bucks for a haircut is pretty annoying.. and maintaining it short means you have to shell out the 10 hard earned dollars every frickin month. To add insult to injury, that's RM30 - the equivalent of a family dinner at your local ikan bakar stall. Mmmm... ikan bakar. Anyway..

8. options! - With long hair, you have an endless degree of customizability as to represent how the top of your head looks like. Heck, the whole head for the matter. Dreadlocks, straight, ponytailed, braided... the sky is the limit!

7. to make a political statement - I once knew a friend who fought for his right to keep long hair back in his high school years. People would look at him, and those who give him a slightly wrong gaze will end up in him releasing the bitter statement "That fkker pandang slack kat aku just because aku rambut panjang. WTF?!". In turn, he ends up keeping his hair long in hopes of waging a war in proving "young guys with long hair do not suck". A battle of futility, for sure, but it gives him purpose and determination. Inspirational, to say the least

6. the sands of time are running low - "Better to regret something you've done, rather than regret something you didn't do." Keep your hair long in your student days, because you ain't gonna get that chance again when you launch yourself in your career. When you graduate and go into interviews, chances are, whether you've been waging your political war against long-hair-disbelievers or not, your potential employer probably isn't going to hire you on first impression if you have long hair due to unfair percaptions. (Time to wage that war)

5. you can wear headbands without looking "poyo" - When's the last time you wanted to look like Roger Federer without looking pretentious? Okay, probably never, but the point is, having long hair justifies why you should look like Federer - to avoid your hair from being a nuisance during sport. Boo yah!

4. The gentle art of Headbanging - The simple truth is, we metalheads generally don't have nimble and dexterous feet unlike the nocturnal night-clubbers who get wasted every Friday night. No sir, we can't dance. The only form of expression of our appreciation of the music we enjoy is through the art of headbanging. And this is all the more cooler with long hair. You get to do the helicopter. Helicopters are basically when you rotate your head, making your hair move in a fan-blade like fashion, like a helicopter (Refer to Figure 1). Go to your local metal gig, and do the helicopter until you feel the world revolving under your feet. Sweet.

Figure 1 - the helicopter


3. intergenerational pride - Do you remember those moments, when you, as a kid, would dig up old stuff from the store room, and find a picture of your dad as a student... and you just can't help but be blown away. "Whoa, bapak aku dulu rambut panjang siot! Cool gila!" Awesome stuff. Now, fast forward that. Put yourself in your dad's shoes, and imagine that look you get from your kid's face. Priceless.

2. Sunnah Rasulullah S.A.W. - It's a well known fact that our Prophet had long hair. We will be rewarded for every act with the intention to follow his wise actions. The only reason that this was not ranked #1 in the list, is that, when you tell people you keep your hair long because "nak ikut sunnah Nabi", you'll usually evoke negative responses such as "nak kahwin 4 lah tu. Gatal". What? That's not fair! How dare you taunt my sincere intentions!

1. Because we can - The undisputed reason guy students should keep their hair long, of course, is simply because we can. We don't really need justification - although of course, the other 9 reasons are pretty good ones. But really, it's a simple human desire - the everlasting curiousity of new discoveries and experiences.

Need I say anything further? So, what are you waiting for? Join the helicopter brotherhood today. The beauty of it all is, to enlist, all you have to do is - nothing! Don't go to your local hairdresser, don't take out that shaver, and try not to accidentally burn your hair. Let nature take its place, and let these justifications serve as a reminder that we aren't freaks, but intelligent visionaries with purpose!

posted by Faisal Abdul Latif @ 11:57 PM