Friday, May 29, 2009

testing 123

we encounter different experience in life, well yeah, if not life would be boring wouldnt it?. and i believe that we were made that way to share the experience with one another, advice, comfort, or probably agree to disagree with one another.

and probably the reason why i dont blog about my Umrah experience is maybe i dont want people thinking that "ouh he just got bck from umrah and now he's the head imam all of a sudden" or i dont want people to have an expectation for me to change " tgk tu, balik umrah, still pakai sluar pendek lagi" . but if u ask me personally, i wouldnt mind telling you how the whole trip was.

i feel that my Umrah experience was FANTASTIC and to anyone who has the chance to go there for the first time or to visit again, i suggest, please do go!. because, like an ustaz in my tour group said when i told him i was abit nervous about umrah, he sed;

" takut tak cukup ilmu? sampai bile tu? saya ni pon ustaz tak semestinye dah cukup ilmu, dan ini ada panggilan Tuhan. Bukan semua orang dapat ni, orang2 kaya ade je yg tak pernah sampai sini, tp ade je petani yg boleh sampai ke sini."

i guess im not able to put the whole experience in words, and ive posted pictures on my facebook and i know thats the furtherst i can bring the Kaabah to you. next, is your move.

and like i told Moony, when we talked about a gay issue, i have nothing against them, but as we know, it is not allowed in Islam. and i have gay friends aswell, but its how you try conveying the message or da'wah to them. nowadays the da'wah is so strict which goes " oh kau mcm ni, masuk neraka!" but i feel its not the suitable method. Rasulullah was a kind and soft spoken person, and look at the numbers of muslim now. Amr ma'ruf nahi Munkar which means enjoin good and prevent evil. and everyone's doing in the world is between him and God. its their own battle. they have to face it own their own. and hey, we all do. We have our own battles too in this life, where God tests us in different ways and sizes. BUT we have to fight on our own. not to sit down and do nothing about it. not to succumb to it and settle with defeat. I have mine too. and im fighting aswell.

Maybe the Holy places gave me spiritual healing and peace at the same time. but i realised that when you come bck to ur daily life, you are again being tested. and God do this to see whether you're worthy to enter Heaven. not because He hates you. not because He likes to pick on you. He is testing you to see whether you are worthy to enter Heaven. simple as that."A Gift Without an End".who doesnt want that?

so i hafta fight this battle properly, and i fall back on my friends to keep me happy and sane. and it helps alot. so i shall keep these people close to me. very close.

"A Gift Without an End" was taken from surah Hud. and i like it.

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